new house, new hope

Just shift everything into the new house yesterday. Cleaning the house took us about 5 hrs, then shifting things from another house takes about another 4 hrs. Been exhausted already. Anyway, hope things will get better once then. Hurray. After viva...home o home.

Still breathing

Everyday has been a lie for me. I lied to myself that all these sufferings will end soon and yet I'm still so busy with my workloads. I do not understand. Its the final semester, why cant these lecturers just let us off for a little fun?? Dont they have feelings>> a feeling human beings should have at the very least? Compassion? Mercy? Sigh. Hope tomorrow after I hand in my Masters proposal, things will be better. My thesis is almost up. I do not care anymore. I know he sure have lots to say abt it, but i couldnt care less. How much marks can it affect my cgpa? worse, with masters degree...who cares anymore abt my bachelor degree.. Things change the moment i decided to do masters. I hope i dont regret my own decision. I felt sorry that i couldnt take care of my mum back at home , even after her retirement. I was quite determined back then that i would care for her better after neglecting her for the past 4 years. I do not have much choice now, with the ailing economy not looking any brighter anytime soon. Just hoping to get the Intel scholarship, at least with higher pay. OMG, since when did money matter so gravely for me?? Am i changing? Oh no, I really misses the old days when all i can think of its mini homeworks and then enjoy all day. Maths + english which are so easy those days.. I really misses those good old days. If one day some scientist could invent a time traveller machine, then i probably would be so eager going back there. Now thinking back, being an engineer..what can i do for the world..what can i change in this world? Nothing. Its all about getting the monthly cheque for some thinking. People can still survive without me here. But if i took a different path in the past and be a doctor or teacher, I could save lives or help the poor to read/write. Why am i feeling this insanity in me only when I m about to grad? I hope one day I would end up being someone useful to the society and not just interpreting graphs and getting my allowance.

Finished touched up on draft thesis

Happy that i managed to finish my draft...finally..been modifying here and there...sigh..Cant wait to pass to Dr zul to moro and then i can enjoy the whole weekend while waiting to get my remark back. Everyday wake up so early go pclab or library just to get better internet connection. This is lame, and i am getting tired of this crap writing. Getting so lazy as my dateline gets nearer. But i really gotta thank God for i wasnt the last one to complete these tasks. There are a handful more whom were suffering, not because they were lazy, but due to their lecturer's high demand on free works by these students. Alright, better stop here, everyone is complaining about my dark eye circles.

so mou liu

omg..i cant believe i am still writing this blog after what i have to write for the past entire week. Thesis thesis thesis.... so sien..so difficult to understand that stupid results. Journals dont tell u much either...damn..have to crack my brain thinking, my heart getting crazy..hands getting nausea too...omg..see what am i writing? i think i am crazy dy....lolz....gambate ...!

Back to blogging..

omg, cant believe how long i had left my blog here alone. Almost the entire month! Well, no doubt i was pretty busy lately, contemplating with my final year project. It was always on the run and with dateline due in the end of this month, my legs really need to catch up with the pace. So lets recapture what happen last month. It was almost weekly travel to Pg just to visit Dear's parents. I just felt it was part of my job to allow them to meet more often, just incase if Dear would to find a job in KL soon. Looks like i wasnt an egoistic man after all, haha..(clap clap). Then we planned to go Cameron but it didnt work out again. Then end of feb, 28th we had our last Material night in City Bayview hotel Penang. It was a fabulous night with everyone so well dress. At first i can say that i wasnt that enthutiastic about it. I even went to gym with 2-3 hours left for dressing/bath/pack and so on. Cheah Li came over to dear's apartment and she got her masterpiece hair-do and make up thanks to dear. I on the other hand had my first hands-on iron job for my costumes. Once there, we immediately make a big impression. Sorry, it wasnt me. It was my dear because of her super low cut and gorgeous dress, coupled with her good looks. Everyone was stunned by her outlook that night. I seems to bring a supermodel out but that feeling was not that great. I had to constantly monitor and drag her from all those hamsap beasts/dogs. Anyway, we both made it into the nomination for Prom King and Queen with the label M1 and F1. It was great!! but i didnt had much appetite after that. Have to keep my buttons in check..LOLz. I was the first to make it there, accompanied by yann ni. It was sort of the first experience being a mini instant celebrity. Then two more from material came. So the people of all year have to vote for us. I guess this is the most fair fight since previous years it was all about popularity and not good looking/posture/clothes and so on. Dear/Annling and Jo made it thru and the cameramen instantly went for them. When the finally announce the winner, i was really nervous but quite confident actually. My dear wasnt around, toilet for the countless number that night. When my name was called, i somehow managed to regain my posture and shook hands with some friends before proceed to the stage to claim my price. It was a self made flower pinned to my shirt. Oh yea, didnt i mention i bought a rm 160 Sub brand vest? Guess it was worth it after all. Jo was the other winner but she didnt turn up and i walked with the 3rd yr dailou down the stage. It was an embarassing moment, but i hardly felt it. I am still sort of feeling proud then. I was a little frustrated then that dear wasnt around for so long period. Really wanted to hug her or share my happiness then with her, only to find her empty chair. People was questioning that me and evon nearly played the entire show. haha. Well if evon made it too, i guess this was then a history in materials night for a couple to have both awards. After that night, we, cheahli, kelv lina, xing followed the 3rd year down to Mois for clubbing time. Upon reaching there, we had some good drinks, but one of it was the one i bought from langkawi-the Bombay gin. So the taste was somehow familiar. One glass didnt turn me on..so comes the second, third... We danced and danced till some of us dropped dead. We met up with many other final yr too, too many to name them all. Surprise my dear was so kuai that she didnt drink at all despite paying $ and us forcing her. Bravo bravo.. So in the end, i wasnt drunk , well maybe just half. I could still drive but heard there's road block. So evon drove me while cheahli drove xing/lina to evon hse to cool off the alcholism. The next day was a pain. Couldnt sleep that much that night though really sleepy. Really headache then. And guess now it was all back to work in lab again. Me and dear got an interview in Puchong this weekend but we rejected them due to being in sales line. Her parents didnt really like the idea of her doing sales. So with the idea of continuing masters coming from both side of parents, we might consider though sacrificing 2 years of our life in this shitty campus. Thats all for now. realyly late now and better stop here.
Yours truly,
Prom King M1 2009

holiday is over

finally back to campus since monday after a week long break for CNY. Left for Penang on Fri itself to find dear. We had some good time as we missed each other badly. We played mah-jong with her family and even got a cheap lou sang together for the first time. Time flies and all of sudden, we are sitting right here in campus again. I have been doing some readings since then, thanks to my uncle who shot me lots of things till i doubt my FYP. Anyhow, trying to catch up with my work again. I booked the machine on wed and thurs, with dr Zul asking all of us to do a presentation for him. Damn, i am getting nervous. I also really need to do my resume and start applying for jobs before its too late. damn the economy problem these days.

Happy CNY to all~2009

Got back home last Fri. it was a longful drive right from penang island. Omg i ate so much that i gained 1 kg in one day!..damn... now we are preparing to go back hometown-Kajang. for our reunion dinner and i cant wait to savour the taste of my grandma'S cooking again. Just hope all people will enjoy this CNY, especially for me and dear who is still in penang.