Holiday Raya

Its only one day away..from the holiday break. Yet, didn't feel that excited about it. Probably was just too tired. Been days..hell no!, it's been weeks I'm stuck with my conference paper. Revised again after revision being done. Let's hope this is worth it=)
Just to describe what I'm gonna do the moment I reach home later. This picture shows it all.

Yay...Report is Done..

Finally the progress report is done, with acceptable results!!! OMG, wonder how many times have I repeat those testings just to get this. Thankfully, I have Hachi to take part of pressure and stress away. How? It stares at me like this picture every time my head cracks and spin.
Really loves Hachi, he can really entertain someone at all time (Well, except when he is dead asleep..)

Anyway, I thought that now I could get more sleep, but I was wrong. More works, works...
And less exercise. Sigh. I could barely jog the full round of campus anymore. Thats the problem with my stamina, I need to train a long time to get that fit. When I stopped jogging for only 2 weeks, it's back to square 1.

Can't wait to be back home during Raya, to eat all the Rendaaangggggggssss that I have missed for the past 5 yrs. Yum.....

Hope/Losses

Its been some time since I wrote, and my mind is blank again thinking what and how should I begin to acknowledge my past 2 months story. Talking about the past few posts, its all about losing weight, getting fit and six-pack agenda. No, I still haven't get those dungeon golds, but I did managed to find some bronze in that treasure hunt. I managed to lose 5-6kgs, gaining some good LBM and losing fat!!! Yay, thats something for me to scream in joy.. I mean its a good start right?I'm also heading for my bodyweight lifting/training. Its simple, no machine needed..and if I can lift 70kgs, wouldn't that be better than lifting 20-30kgs barbells? I used to be able to do only chin up, but I can now do a few times of pull ups.

July was pretty much a busy month- with more pressure from the upper ladder. Everyday is all about work work...and then exercise. The mind keeps telling myself to skip those exercise and rest more. It was really horrible at first to fight your own thoughts..Thinking again, using your own mind to fight your mind..make sense? No?

That month was also a pretty joy giver month. Minnie (my hampster) finally gave birth to 4 little mini hampsters...Taking care of them isnt any easy job..but minnie did an excellent job to her kids. I dont know how it happened. From hating her to the blue horizon due to her aggresive character to loving her again. Who can just hate her after seeing the selfless behaviour when taking care of her kids..She loves to run..She loves to climb..moves..but when faced with her own kids, she just slowly breast feed them. When they children gets slightly bigger and able to eat, she brings them food. We feed her, and she feeds them. Even better, she opened up the kuaci for them!!! Unbelievable behaviour...we really salute her for all her selfless act.. She used to snatch all the food for herself..and the newborns was the changing point.

Anyways, last sat, one of her kids died. Unknown cause. Probably lack of vitamins/food?

Minnie was so worried for him, keep feeding him and so on..but when still no reaction, she bring him some place dark..and then get a good bite. We quickly separate them, but the injury woke the kid up from the deep deep sleep. Until now we have no idea if what we have done is correct.

Today, it was Minnie's turn. After her kid's death, she was diagnosed with having a tumor at the throat. Second day, it gets bigger. She could hardly breathe and walk anymore. My heart really feel so so pain. I do not understand this. How can a tumor affect a hampster so fast? 3 days and here comes the death angels? How can such a good mother be separated from her kids so fast? Gosh, I can really feel the pain in real human mothers/kids..

We buried her nearby and I guess everytime we walked past there, the feeling will never be the same ever again..

Losing Fat

Alright, this is a long battle. It has been and will always be. The battle to get a lean body, and by that I actually meant visible solid 6 packs abs on ME. This fight is real this time. Determination is higher than before. But, how? Where should I start?

Okay, for a start, I researched a lot throughout the internet, and found all sorts of formulae/nutrition/diets/workouts/talks by all reputable people. Well, somehow I find them rather contradicting among one another. It was that very moment I found out about Joel Marion, one of the top 50 trainer in the US. It's not his body that ripped me away (since there isn't even a few shots which show his muscles), but his programs. Maybe just the way he described it...the entire program just sounds so good to me. Extreme Fat Loss. Being an avid eater and an ex-gluton person, it's plainly just difficult to STOP eating!! When I saw the phrase "you could even eat pizza every few days" I was just taken aback, but was also quite happy about it. Since it has a money back guarantee, I gave it a try. It wasn't cheap, considering the exchange rate and being in a developing country. I told my self, success comes with a sacrifice. And here, money is the sacrificial lamb. Of course no doubt I have to sacrifice more time, and effort too for this to work, but heck, ain't this my main aim?

I even got a new protein powder. I couldnt find anywhere in this small town, so have to settle for this less effective product for now. Reason? It has quite a lot of carbs and less proteins compared to the Gold Standard ones sold in shopping malls. It says lean mass gain!! I was wondering, is this another weight gain product? I want to lose weight, not the other way round!! Then I read, re-read and re-re-read again the labels. Luckily it has very low amount of calories, fat and sugar (which is good for starters like me). I'm such a noob in choosing these protein powders. Previously I only prefer to buy fresh eggs and eat the egg whites as good consumable proteins, but apparently this isn't sufficient.

Here is a picture of the protein product I got.

Next, I bought a bathroom weighing scale, and the very next day, the program starts!!!

It's a short term program actually, being less than a month. Let me check if it really works and I might blog about it in near future.

LEXMA mouse appears

As it is..a red mouse appear in my room, with the word "LEXMA" en-printed on the surface...

There goes my Sensonic G-20 mouse I bought almost a year ago. It failed me once, somewhere end of last year. It somehow helps me to double click even though i only clicked an icon once.

And after obtaining a brand new one as replacement, it became faulty again after only about 4 months. Scrolling problem, and not sensitive anymore. After all, this is a G-laser mouse, but I have trouble using them in many places, eg. matress, polished tiles/marbles. Weird and bad quality I supposed, though I love the huge size that fits well in my hand.

And this is my new mouse, well maybe temporarily till I found a better one. It wasn't my first choice, looking at the size. It was 2 inch shorter than the Sensonic one, making my finger tip sticking out. Nevertheless, it still works well, and I hope this retractable thingy don't fail me so soon.

Soy milk -Good/Bad?

Recently heard that soy milk is really a bad choice if we wanted to reach the goal-SIX PACK ABS. Not too sure about it though, cause the box definitely mentioned little calories/low sugar, but with 5gm of proteins with only a glass. So, I did read up on these issue.

Read many news/articles/blogs..

They says: Soy products include tofu/soy milk and so on.. do not cause you extra fat. It somehow releases more estrogen hormones into the body and this helps to retain fat. This extra boost of estrogen level will only take place if we consume "HUGE" quantity of soy product. Therefore, I think its still safe if we drink them moderately, coupled with exercise. Soy products can lower the LDL cholesterol, the manufacturer claims. But to what extend, and how true is this, we don't know for sure. After all, they could spend billions of dollars just to advertise the good news of soy, surely an extra million to bribe the scientist wouldn't matter that much.

Nevertheless, there are other side effects too, some claiming that it can caused cancer-breast & so on. Not many articles mention about this. But there is something that is very true. The chinese who had many guinea pigs during the "dynasty" period had done many testings regarding this fermented soy milk-tofu. It was consumed very little, just to enhance the taste of other dishes that were cooked together. This simple recipe was brought to Japan, where tofu is then employed in Miso soup. Just a few slices of tofu brings the soup to such a delicious taste.

Conclusion: I would still drink soya milk & eat tofu, but maybe done in moderate style.

Inheritance

After my previous post on favouritism, I felt compelled to touch more on typical family issues that were endangering family relationships.

Inheritance- Properties in any kind (money/houses/shops/condoms/dildo/shits etc..) left over by the deceased parents to their next of kin (probably their children)

It is only natural that each parents leave something for their own children when they themselves leave to another money-less zone. Maybe there is, but surely it won't be the same currency we are using in Mother Earth?? Anyway, I'm not going to argue about that. So in conclusion, the children would be happy & thankful to their folks, thinking their life would be much more meaningful & comfortable. But the truth is no. How could you be happier alone than being close with your siblings -brothers & sisters.? Some of course are very fortunate to inherit a lump sum and yet forged close relationship with their siblings thru the spirit of SHARING.

A picture of jealousy: due to love

Nevertheless, inheritance causes many family breaking up, with curses hurling among one another. Elder brother will claim that being the eldest, he command the higher percentage of inheritance-say 60%, and the remaining is divided among the rest. The youngest will not fail to mention that he will need a huge sum to either study/do business or some shit. So the list goes on.. but what is important is neither of them would be satisfied with whatever the results of dividing is. Hatred & jealousy will slowly creep up their sleeves till their tiny little bronchus strips. Pop!! The family string that binds everyone together broke & neither heard from each other ever again from that day. 30 years memories of playing together under the field, snatching food/ hide & seek game/swimming & badminton together will just remain as memory forever.

That is just one of the worst example when the parents do not write their wills before their death. So what if they did? Will they stop arguing & fighting about this inheritance?? Well, probably if the parents did the right thing and gave EQUAL treatment to all of their children. Yeah, this is so RELATED to my previous post, but then again, if parents were so one-sided, their children might just go their own way. Which child would just sit quietly and happily when the lawyer turns up at your parents funeral, telling you "you only inherits 10%, your eldest bro 60% and your younger bro got the remaining 30%" Well, 10% might mean a lot if your parents are rich fellas, but the truth that were told thru this will only symbolizes one thing- parents love to other siblings are much greater than you. And then, you'll feel dejected, feeling as lonely as the guppy fish in a huge pond.

So you see, which ever way, inheritance of money really troubles many families & I have witnessed a few good ones. My suggestion for parents is to always write a proper will and be fair to all children. You bring them to this world, leave each of them with something that they can remember for their lifetime. If not, better spend all your own money & just give each of the children a toy bear or something similar. By that way, they would not argue among one another & they have something to remind of your presence.