Merry Christmas

After involving in hell work for the past few days (being in lab) i can finally breathe some x-mas air. I got one hell of a present...no..its TWO..a cellnique Pro gel Serum and a Roc Blackhead scrub mask. It cost rm 139 and 79 respectively. OMG. thanks dear so much. I feel hurt and happy at the very same time. I really didnt expect so much or so expensive gift especially when u just got your PTPTN. my blackheads.-just hope that this gift works for me after all the good news i read in the product review. My dear even followed me to the midnight mass last night in Church..in Georgetown. I felt bad as the last time i went to church was quite a while ago, neglecting my inner needs of GOD. i just hope that after i grad, i would not give myself more excuses about this. So here in this msg, Merry Christmas to everyone and thank you dear for everything.

On the brink of starting new and last semester in USM

1 day away from official exam results, 4 days from new and final semester in
USM, things are certainly changing and evolving around me. A week after my thesis proposal was accepted, i have been dwelling hard day and night (with the help of dear, thanks lots..) to cut my fibers using "paper cutter" . Nevertheless i was told by the phD supervisor who went to FRIM for this purpose that they can do it all there, so i am currently jobless and waiting for her to be back, with the hope of doing some next week. Xmas is coming next thurs, and i do not know if the labs will be open then since we have super-hardworking technicians around, so that still post many questions for us students. I guess i have not felt this free since starting my project early this week. Just hope that when the results are out tomorrow, me and dear will be rejoicing over them and celebrate in FLAME restaurant if things are EXcellent..if not, normal lunch will do in view of the economic crisis.

2nd try to go

just finish compiling my second round thesis cum proposal.. Just hope everything goes well tomoro without any rejection. If not my world will be crumbling down again, with me sitting in front of this laptop starring at it all weekend. Way to go-Pat... oh yea, ate good dinner..KFC with dear, been long time since we get good food around here..must be due to economic crisis...wahaha...

unlucky

after compressing my head for the past two weeks, i happily hand in my 3 chapters thesis with a word back-REJECTED. really speechless about it. It means i couldnt start my lab work yet. I knew somehow even if its not rejected, i will re-do most of the parts because i myself is unsatisfied about it. But why cant just let me do both at the same time? thats the question. sigh...My dear also have her own problem with project. Just wish everything turns up well for both of us.

Back and Staying Busy

Damn..just back for less than a week, and tension is mounting up again. Have to do my proposal cum 3 chapters thesis before even begin my work. Tired. Reach Pg on Sun, drive back campus on Tues before back pg again on wed. Now i cant even follow my dear and her mum to wet market because my mind is full of guilt for not completing this work while others have all done their part much earlier. Anyhow just all the best for me. Dear's dad just came back earlier and he got a msg for his son..a police summon..i wonder what happen tonight when all is back? Lets stay put...on TV 2..kakaka

going back AGAIN

its another heavy feeling leaving my dearest home, bed, family including charlie...to campus again to do my final year project (FYP). Though for consolation i have my dear waiting for me there in penang, but sigh..the thought of back to miserable campus drags my heart down. Anyway its my final semester there, and i will be OFFICIALLY an engineer then. Dream come true? i do not know as dont know where my dear will be, dont know what job we will get in this economic woes. There are just too many uncertainties now for me to think of graduation period. Lastly, wish my dear happy birthday ...23rd years old and i am so so glad i will make it to celebrate wif u as i promised. Just wish me safe journey tomorrow to celebrate with you.

Petrol chaos

it really bogs me with the latest news that we, citizens of net exporter fuel country are actually paying much more than the world market. What has happen to the previous state where that SLEEPY PM has promised a 30cents subsidy to us? Now not a voice is heard from him regarding this issue. Even if u damn Govt wants to remove the subsidy for your own profit, please do not make us pay MORE that what the Real Value is. Thats called day-light robbery from our very own pocket. And to all of the petrol dealers who are mainly malays, Just stop grumbling about price reduction and bla bla.. If you cant take risk and only think of earning, do not apply for that permit instead. Let a non-malay show you the way to do business and make a hell of cash out of your damn permit. You guys already got a huge chunk from the biased govt and yet still complaining. OMG, really cannot withstand these people. Just hope and pray that Msia would not be the next Somalia with the chinese and indians being the pirates along the straits of Malacca.

lazy me

i am feeling so lazy these days. Eat sleep play and chatting is what i do for living since exam over. Really no mood to start doing the pre-thesis cum proposal for my FYP. Its estimated to be around 40 pages, and that really makes me gloomy about it. Omg ate so much these days. really speechless. so hard to lose weight yet gain so easily. Stayed at home whole day and nearly died of boredom. No choice have to wait for electrician to fix the wiring for house alarm.

Lovely home

Reached home after some crazy driving through the merciless rain. Luckily managed home safely. Charlie greeted me with some kiss and some of his usual hapsap style. It was cute but irritating in a way, well only have ourselves to blame for his upbringing. Had another steamboat..OMG. it was almost the same dishes too.. with fish pastes, and lots of veges and mee. Entire family seems to have lots to talk to me, and my mum even thought i didnt back since CNY. Was it that long since i made my presence felt last August? weird..
They asked me lots about my dear and thankfully it was all positive with them keep asking her to come over in future. Just hope that it will be okay for her side as well. Miss my dear lots but right now i am going to miss my bed even more...wahaha......ages since i hug u.....

another sad moment

with an hour to go, my heart is feeling really heavy. Though i know its only a week and not forever seperation, but i still feel difficult to let go.. i will really miss u dear. i will come back for your birthday..muaxx:)

sad and happy ending of sem

Merdeka..finished my last paper today, well technically yesterday because its just passed 12am. dont expect it to be good because dr azlan part was all tricky with misleading info in his notes. Anyway, passed is passed, no point dwelling over the flipped coin. Just have to wait for the good news -results. Went to Flame Juru with my dear for buffet steamboat, costing rm 26 each. we over-ordered the dishes and i guess we were nearly going to be overcharged for that. Luckily we managed to gulp down everything into our poor stomach. Oh, forgot to mention the kimchi soup was just a so-so type but the ginger milk was a damn good soup-highly recommended. After that we lurk around Guardian a while before heading straight to Sunway Carnival for latest Bond movie-Quantum of Solace. It was exciting and exhilirating but the lack of gorgeous beautiful Bond girl????? That main lady was just a slim amateur girl with nothing special. So the time has come for an end of the sem for me, going back to KL tomoro ALONE. It's rather pathetic and sad because i have been expecting my dear to follow me, but she still have another paper on the 19th and after that she prefer spending time with her beloved family. So no point forcing her, but yet i am feeling the pain too since hardly seperated from her all these while. Wonder how will the one week be? Sort of miss my home lots too.. with my nice comfy bed and aircond and all those malls to hangout. only missing puzzle-my dear. So i shall take the chance to get good rest at home, catching up wif family members or even friends who wants to meet up. Damn! i still have to do the stupid proposal-thesis alike, but i doubt it will be complete by the time i return to this campus. ok, better pen off here, my dear will not like me to stay up late while i will be driving long distance tomorrrow. So the question remains whether am i happy or sad that the difficult and exhausting sem had ended with me going back alone? I simply cant answer that- there's no answer to that.

Swim and swim to the deep end

just finished my third paper-rubber engineering after back to back papers. Wanted to take the much needed nap but the sun just didnt permit me with his great power. Anyway, went to jawi club for a swim with gan and justin. The swim was good especially the mini-waterfall alike which temporary give me a miniature massage on my back and neck. It was really relaxing-that was what i found of swimming. Really didnt feel like studying the entire day, feel like collapsing. but just didnt wan and couldnt afford to screw up the last paper on friday while i think i fared pretty good for others. Mission: Score Dean List and Get CGPA of 3.4 above when grad.

exam stress

So indulged in my exam that i have neglected blogging for a few days. A paper has passed and 3 more to go the following week. Really stress and tired of these because never seems to get enough sleep, not to mention dating and playing my game-DOTA. Good luck to me and my dear!! Dean list to go again,....

weekender

i thought last weekend was great enough. went to seoul garden buffet with dear. ate till bloating. after all it was healthy eating because i ate lots of greens. Nevertheless didnt expect this weekend to be even more better. last class on thursday-came to PG. Just finished my debate on wed, had lab test and quizes on thurs. Now i am finally free of my stupiud lab reports. really begin to hate them so much as they are really time consuming. Worked non stop for 10 reports but it only gave us 60%. The 1 hour test gave us 40%. That is really unfair. I have been playing games consistently this weekend, coupled with occasional nagging by my dear. still had another test next wed and the last english work-interview on tuesday. Shit- i felt i am being addicted to Dota again just like the old days. Needed help.......but not nagging. I of course want to go shopping but the financial strain and the workload of my dear having this week are too much of a burden.

test stress

tomorrow, i had to sit for the 20% carry marks test-Fiber processing. After reading the notes given, i found another great interest in it. I finally understand why some materials especially the textile need to have certain properties to have better characteristics. Anyway it gave me a freeze on my head thinking of the high allocation of marks for this. I do not understand why we student stresses so much on the test. I had gone through many other test this sem but this is sort of the most stressful one. God Bless Me tomorrow. I wish me and dear all the best tomorrow test. Hope we can go to Seoul Garden or Flame with an open happy heart after the exams. Better sleep early as lack of sleep the past few nights.

ending of holidays

its friday. Me and dear set off for early dim sum nearby which is pretty delicious. Then not wanting to give up we went to the Penang General Hospital although being told that it was closed due to raya holiday. We were pushed around the few department involved until we get to see the GP. We had some shocking news as the GP told me to go home and use a cotton bud to 'dig it out'. This contradicting info from what the specialists in UMMC told me throughout my entire life. NEVER used cotton bud-thats the common phrase i heard. Again i feel frustrated so we pushed her to refer me to the specialist though she was pretty reluctant then. Good for me that the specialist who treat me was a good one, and she did the suction for me. Without the microscope i doubt she can actually see through inside the eardrum but the suction was good enough to remove some huge chunk of shits. I did have some ear drops and olive oil for 2 months. Over all the trip was worth since it cost me RM 1 and the treatment and waiting time was short (less than 1 hour)

Its sat, time has signalled the coming end of holidays. Woke up at 2 pm after dotaing with aaron till 4am. Me and dear went to Penang Youthpark for hill hiking. Met lots of monkeys and even some of them whom were so aggresive.

Ear Blockage

Omg! my worse fear has returned. After being diagonosed as a patient who often gets ear problem; be it infection, fungal or just mere blockage due to excessive wax, i am pretty afraid of this scenario although experience is in my hands. Specialists in the past had treat me well but i cant believe i still have to endure this again. Is it because of my love for swimming or my itchy hand which disturbs the natural removal of the wax?? Ear wax, which is also called the cerumen by scientist are usually auto-removed by natural process and can be enhanced by the movement of our own jaw! There are many ways that it can removed, with practically 95% General Practitioner going for the syringing method. For this, the water used must be warm and be in temperature closed to our body temperature, just to prevent any dizzy side effects. Syringing process is the first ear wax removal procedure in my life. Though i do remember it is a little warm, it still give some dizzy effects and some pain too. The specialists in UMMC never used this but prefer only the vaccum process under the microscope. They believed that water might damage the ear canal or ear drums if there is any holes on it. Now that its raya time and all hospitals are closed, i feel so sick and traumatised. The feeling of losing your hearing on one side for two HELL days is CRAZY. That is the only time u feel like living like OKU. Anyway, hope all these will be ok soon.

enjoying moments of holiday

Raya holidays..guess this will be the last time i will be celebrating raya in penang or campus. I have missed all my rendangs for the past few years. Luckily i had my beloved dear to stay with me since last year and at least we could hang out rather than staying lonely and eat myself. Sometimes when i think of the past, i salute myself for able to standup alone in the "cage" for such a long period without grumbling much. Getting older doesnt bring much fun to a person. Occasionally i do not wish to grow up, hoping to remain a student forever. But i know being a student will never give me extra cash meaning i will forever be parents boy. I am already beginning to feel the pinch of pressure that an adult should feel. I just hope to endure this beginning of the new phase of era of my life with my beloved dear. As i mentioned earlier, it all boils down to the future and i can only remain vigilant about mine.

New blogger is born

Though being computer literate almost my entire life, but i didn't fully utilise them. Now finally realising my time is almost up (being in my final step to grad) in Uni made me do something useful rather than just playing games and watching movie. Well, its not like there is anything else i can do in this bug-infested, sexist and boring campus.
Another reason that made me start blogging is that there is just too many things that are pretty disturbing, maybe only to me. Political stupidity made me feel so agitated that i just feel like strangling some of the politicians altogether before dumping inside some of my stupid lecturers bin. Not forgetting those lazy pigs in my whats-ever assignment group who never did their homeworks, yet just counting on me. I feel so tired and sick of this certain race-namely pigs. Sick of their racist behavior, lazyness, talk with no action, complaining all day attitude. They can forever just suck on their mothers milk for the rest of their life and pray God will drop golds to them, i do not care. Just dont bring your problems to me.